Today is a special day. It's my due date. I have been mindful of the twins all day. Not in a tragic sort of way, but remembering them and my pregnancy with fondness. How I wish those kids would have joined our family here! I wonder what they would look like. If they would be in NICU. Or if I'd be getting any sleep. It's kind of hard to fathom what life would be like. I miss them.
In reality they would have been born weeks ago. For that reason I didn't put too much emphasis on this, my due date. I did, however, turn the soil and water the trees we got in memory of them and was mindful of the little people they represented. I walked around the mall and looked at newborn clothes and wished I could have dressed them. I snuggled my Boy a little more than usual.
But I also did something exciting! My husband and I attended the fertility clinic for an ultrasound and we got to see our 7 week old baby's heart ticking away! And that did wonders to turn our focus from death to life. How very blessed we are!
6 comments:
Indeed! So excited. Blessings on all of you!
A baby on the way for you!!! I am so happy for you.
Beautifully written as always. Congratulations sis!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!! How exciting. And, yes, this was beautifully written.
My perception is that this is so beautifully written because you're at a beautiful place within yourself. I love it when I feel the way you sound in this post - like you're accepting and nurturing of the pains and the joys. And aren't those joys something else?
Hey miss Valarie Ruth, I am scared to ask how it is going, but I want to know. Here's hoping you have a substantial belly and are getting kicked.
(I am an occasional attendee at your brother's church and am VERY fond of him, for what I know of him.) I am also a faithful follower of Joyce's blog and now Joyce knows I am real - or at least Pastor David does.
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