Today is a special day. It's my due date. I have been mindful of the twins all day. Not in a tragic sort of way, but remembering them and my pregnancy with fondness. How I wish those kids would have joined our family here! I wonder what they would look like. If they would be in NICU. Or if I'd be getting any sleep. It's kind of hard to fathom what life would be like. I miss them.
In reality they would have been born weeks ago. For that reason I didn't put too much emphasis on this, my due date. I did, however, turn the soil and water the trees we got in memory of them and was mindful of the little people they represented. I walked around the mall and looked at newborn clothes and wished I could have dressed them. I snuggled my Boy a little more than usual.
But I also did something exciting! My husband and I attended the fertility clinic for an ultrasound and we got to see our 7 week old baby's heart ticking away! And that did wonders to turn our focus from death to life. How very blessed we are!