Saturday, June 25, 2011


Long awaited and highly anticipated! More work than we expected but definitely worth it.

Thursday, June 23, 2011


Just finished reading Have a Little Faith by Mitch Albom and loved it. Easy to read with wonderful insights that encourage acceptance of others.

My favorite paragraph is as follows:

But I realized something as I drove home that night: that I am neither better nor smarter, only luckier. And I should be ashamed of thinking I knew everything, because you can know the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in pain - no matter how smart or accomplished - they cry, they yearn, they hurt. But instead of looking down on things, they look up, which is where I should have been looking too. Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love, and a peaceful heart. (p221)

I had a mentor like Mitch had in his life. I remember her. That gentle, accepting spirit taught me so much.

Sunday, June 12, 2011


Sometimes I look around me and don't like what I see.

I guess it's the stage of life I'm in. People want to build families. It seems that almost everyone I know with kids the age of my Boy's have another one. Or two. Plus another on the way. My eyes seek out those with arms full or bellies expectant. Don't get me wrong... I'm happy for my friends who are excited about new lives. But I can't help but feel a mix of jealousy and sadness for myself and our family dreams.

Especially when...

I hear of one "unplanned". A marriage that seems headed for disaster. Sad relationships. Personal instability. Risky lifestyles. People who took steps to have "permanent" birth control in place and somehow things just happened. People who don't know what it's like to have to try.

That's when I have to remind myself. There are babies that are sick, like my darling niece. There are mamas that are dying even while their bodies are growing their babies, knowing their child will face life without a mum. Most of the couples who sit in the Fertility Clinic waiting room with us probably don't even have one.

We do. We have a healthy, vibrant little boy. He rocks our worlds. Our marriage is secure. We are generally happy. We just don't get everything we want, when we want it.

Seriously. We are so lucky! I just want to be luckier.... but when I put it in perspective it's easier. I believe we will. It's just a matter of time. A lot of time.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011


Yesterday was a big day for me. I had surgery to remove a septum in my uterus and cauterize some endometriosis. Everything went well and I was home around 8 pm. This morning I feel like I was kicked in the gut by a horse. Yuck! Fortunately, Nana has the Boy and I have the Husband and painkillers. This afternoon is my follow-up appointment. So glad to get this over with!